Today I’m going to take a leap. I suggest that
the discipline of spiritual listening includes tools that take us beyond
words into realms of visual imagination. It's a suggestion fraught with potential for misunderstanding. So (my mind roams the
minefield) I will need to include some “this is not
what I’m talking about here.”
I start with a confession. I am a WORD person. I love
words and all their power to inform and evoke. I love shades of meaning, word
play, and analysis. I love old words, and I even delight in pondering how the
way words take on new meaning over time and reflect the changes in human
perceptions of self and identity.
When I think of listening, I think of words, conversation,
story-telling, explanation. I think of turning memory, image, feeling, idea
into words. When I think of listening in prayer, my primary go-to is the Word
of God, and then to words of spoken prayer.
So I had to be taught other ways of listening, other
tools to help the speaker to get the story, the feelings, the truth of a
thing out. Because, I have learned, not everyone relates as I do to words. Not
everyone finds it easy or natural to pin down some interior movement into clear
verbal thought and language. Many people perceive and communicate much more truly and effectively through images and sensory experience. Along the way I have also discovered that, from
time to time, listening and watching for wordless communication can touch even me on
a level that words do not reach.
Let's explore some examples.
Let's explore some examples.
Picture Jesus
Recently I was with a friend who described
herself as “stuck” in pain, anger and resistance. After days of journaling, reading
and prayer she had not found her way through. It occurred to me to suggest that
she might move away from words, and ask Jesus for a visual, experiential sense
of Himself. A way of prayer that at first sounded a little crazy to me, it is an
invitation to “picture” Jesus. Or, better said, to ask Him to give an image of
Himself located and active in my current situation. As with any prayer, it is
one He may or may not answer in the moment. When He does, I am usually
surprised to see Him in that way.
I will illustrate with personal experience, just to flesh out what I mean. The first time I prayed this prayer (timidly, having had it
suggested to me by a mentor), all at once all the hand-crafted old things around
me started to vibrate and pulse in my imagination. If you’ve been to my house,
you know that I love the stuff of artisans, the practical old pots, furnishings
and rugs of an earlier way of life; the artistry worked into mundane tools of
daily existence: a carrier for water, a place to sit, a bag to stuff with goods
and load onto the camel. Contrary to any expectation I brought with me into the
prayer, I experienced in my imagination not a visual person, but that creative
energy that formed this world, and the way it has been, in measure, imparted to
us made in His image. I was surrounded by power and joy and, yes, energy and
life. As though Jesus invited me to witness a piece of His delight in creative
beauty. It still resides with me as sheer gift to have enjoyed His presence
in that way that day.
Memik is a modern-day metal artisan of great skill |
Once it was His eyes, close and gently focused on me. But I
only remember one time when I was the focus. Another time, and more than once I
was surprised to “see” Jesus standing at the balcony window overlooking Abu
Dhabi. He was watching, longing, brooding. He wasn’t looking at me, but seemed comfortable
there in my living room. Comfortable enough to include me in that bit of what
was on His heart.
Later, from the balcony of our place here in Turkey, over
time again and again, I sensed Him next to me as I stood watch during the mosque call to prayer. Again, I was deeply met, this time with the
realization that I didn’t need to find a lot of perceptive words to pray for this place. Rather, Jesus wants my companionship there with Him,
my willingness to stand there and share His heart of love and longing.
Here’s the first caveat, what I am not suggesting. As with every other form of true prayer, the
purpose is to quiet ourselves and wait. We watch, open to the possibility that
the Lord may reveal Himself, His heart, in a way that our human minds can grasp
hold of in some small way. The danger, which is the same with word-based (or
even Word-based) prayer is that we don’t so much listen as free-associate,
insert our own story into the conversation, manufacture an answer that suits
our desire to hear something, or give credence to spirits other than the Spirit of God. For me, I don’t pray the “picture Jesus” prayer often. I
don’t always sense any response. But from time to time, He has chosen to take
me out of myself and into a space of the reality in which He moves, and the things
are on His mind that have nothing to do with what is on mine.
Imaginative scripture reading
What I have just shared here is an entry into the
possibilities listening not so much for words as with our imaginations, to
reach beyond the words on the page or the words of analysis and explanation
that I or another can pull out of our minds. Another form of imaginative
listening to the Lord includes staying with a piece of scripture long enough to
get to know fact, context and ready meaning, and then to prayerfully imagine oneself
present in the situation. Take, for example, Zacchaeus up that sycamore tree in Luke 19. One way to “listen”
to that story is to picture oneself there. From content clues, what might it
have sounded like, smelt like, felt like? One might simply enter the scene in
imagination, stay awhile, and then ask oneself things. Like in which
character’s role does one find oneself? Zacchaeus? Jesus? One of the disciples?
A member of the crowd? A watcher from the fringe? How does that unconscious choice of place speak to one's current relationship with Jesus or with the community? As the scene unfolds, from
whatever viewpoint, what does that person see, feel, want to do? Is there joy,
hesitation, fear, curiosity? In prayer, what might that be about? Is there an
invitation from Jesus to come closer, to come down, to up-end one’s
understanding of who He cares for? And does the listener find himself or
herself responding with gladness, hesitation, or even resistance?
Again, a caveat. Imagination is a tool, just like
reading. All spiritual listening is aimed at entering another’s story with
empathy and compassion. It is about watching for Jesus, for where His heart is
turned, and moving toward that place with our hearts, minds and souls. While we
may discern things, important things, about ourselves as we listen, we are not the center of the
story. To listen is to refuse to manufacture images that simply accord with
what we want or we already think we know.
Listening to those who are not "word" people
Which takes me to the third form of imaginative listening I
want to take up today. What I’ve spoken of above is cast in terms of listening
for Jesus in prayer. But tools of the spiritual discipline of listening apply
both to listening for Jesus and to listening to another person. In
fact, consistent practice of the tools of this discipline will, in time,
lead to a blurring of the lines so that as we listen to people, we are
constantly listening for, watching for, Jesus in the story.
This third tool is again grounded in the understanding that
not everyone is a “word person.” Some of us process in words, ideas, analysis,
language. Others of us process in images and experiences: color, light, smell,
feels of space and place.
Which means that there are other ways to help someone get
his story out than to ask him to verbalize what is going on inside. My husband,
Curt, is of this sort; and there are a lot of others: visual people for who
images tell the story. So that to “listen” is to invite the speaker to show
things that mean something to him and to talk about that. Vivid in my memory of
this discovery is a day I spent with a friend. We were talking, talking,
talking when I noticed pictures floating by on her screen saver. Horses,
fields, barbed-wire fences foreign to the place I knew her in. “Tell me about
these,” I invited. What unfolded in her telling was a deep geography of her
spirit, and of her life with Jesus, that she does not reach in any
straightforward telling of her story. In that hour, I came to know my friend’s
heart as I had not done in years of shared words.
This is why, when we built Spa for the Soul, we included an
art studio, a place to play with paint and paper and glass and wood and fabric.
For along with the realization that sometimes the way into another’s story is
through exploring images and activities they love, is the companion
understanding that, for some, visual and physical endeavors can serve as the
entry into the sort of prayer that listens for the Lord.
Final caveat. I understand that, for some believers,
imagination is a threatening tool. It conjures fear of magic arts, demonic influence, distance
from reality, or manufactured spirituality. There are those who go so far as to
reject fiction, poetry, film, and other works of imagination as a waste of time, or worse, as a
worldliness fraught with demonic potential. And yet. Here we are, created in
the image of an imaginative God. Imagination is a gift, a good gift. JRR Tolkien saw imaginative creativity (particularly fantasy and faerie),
rightly employed, as the highest form of glory and praise to God. As
with all gifts, we can use it well and wisely, or we can run down paths of misuse
and abuse.
Paul comes to mind as I cast around for how to close this.
As we contemplate ways of listening for the Lord, and to others with hearts and
ears informed by His Spirit:
The Lord is at hand; do
not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication
with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God,
which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in
Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable,
whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is
commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise,
think about these things. Philippians
4:5-8 (ESV)--emphasis mine.
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